Decisions..

Well its been 3 months since my break up. I'm actually doing quite well. I also have some decisions to make with this new phase of life. I have wanted to move somewhere smaller for awhile now, even though Seattle is beautiful and has a lot to offer. I kept going back to the possibility of Portland and think I have decided to move there in June. I'm so excited! I really think it will be more my speed, smaller and more community oriented, not to mention cheaper! My sis currently lives there and we are considering living together for awhile, which should be fun since we've just recently gotten closer again :) So I picked up another part time job and will take a few classes and prepare to go! I really want to settle down somewhere so I'm hoping Portland is the place... I have a few friends there too which helps.

I also recently met someone. It is a long complicated story but basically it was a bit too soon for me and I freaked out a bit, but I am hopeful something can work out in the end :) Its crazy the things that come up when you are in a relationship. I feel like I'm so in tuned to myself and feelings then all the sudden out of now where I react some strange way! Anyway the thing about this guy is much different than anyone else I've ever dated so its fun and refreshing, and I've decided that if it doesn't go anywhere I want someone like him. It has been helpful to see other qualities and men, and realize that although Eric was sweet and I'm sure we would have been happy, there could be an even better fit out there.

Hmm what else...I've decided to get out and get busy, no sitting around sulking! So I joined a few dinner groups and am trying to serve with Union Gospel Mission. It feels good to get involved and live again.  I've also cut coffee out of my diet (with a few tiny exceptions) but I feel GREAT! I am way less anxious, its weird. I love coffee so much, but had an epiphany the other day that it is just worsening my anxiety. I'm still drinking a cup or two of black tea but I'm much more calm now, its amazing :)

Welp. that's about all for now!

Ta!