Valleys

I hate to be a downer but its really truly unbelievable how many trials I've had in the past 3 months. First the break up that turned my world upside down, then my financial aid got cancelled and I only work part time so I've barely been surviving while trying to get through school, then my car broke down :( A friend mentioned they'd too been in a "Valley" and I hadn't thought of it like that until she said that, but that's exactly what I'm in. I know the Lord is drawing my closer to himself in all of it, and has been strengthening me, but its really hard to be in this place and I desperately want it to end   :( I want to learn and grow in deep ways in this time, and I suppose the one good thing is I feel I have been growing a ton and rediscovering who I am... But its hard to look at yourself, I mean take an honest look at who you are (the good AND bad) and where you're at.  Its uncomfortable, but I believe its the only way to truly change.  The thing is I normally have my best friend by my side during life's trials, which seems to make them more bearable, but now I do not. Gosh sorry to be so mellowdramatic!  But the sort of beauty in it all is I'm realizing God is the only one I should come to anyway so its ok if I feel alone in the world, He really is always there for me and all I need.

I recently helped prepare dinner at a shelter and it brought me SO much joy, so that's my plan is to give to others and to learn how to truly love.  I also want to tap into my creative side, because I feel so alive when I make things that are beautiful.

The good news is I know that God loves me and has a beautiful plan for my life, and I really want to learn to trust Him in this time that he will work everything out in the end.  Also I just found out I will get financial aid again this week which is a huge blessing! And I've been almost entirely cutting sugar and carbs from my diet and feel so much better its crazy! I actually feel less hungry, its strange!

Thanks for reading! I hope I was able to encourage you and didn't bring you down!!

~Sabrina